God; deal or no deal

This is an extremely big topic and I will not know the answers so if you wish to grace my site with your comments then please feel free.

GOD

Is he/she/it real? This blog is only my personal opinion and a mix of what I've read and thought about but at this stage I'm not one hundred percent sure. 

You see people all over the world who have sacrificed their life to the christian cause, so sure of what they believe in that they are willing to lay down their lives instead of denying God's existence. Well... that's a big thing to do...

I want to find out, I want to be so sure of my faith that if someone came knocking on my door and told me to deny Jesus or die I would not even consider deny the christian faith.

The way I see it is like this, You can either believe in God or you can believe in evolution. Period. Some people believe in both like my dad but he believes that God is controlling the universe and it is not all by chance so I guess that would put him on the God side of the fence. There is a lot of good evidence for both cases which makes it more confusing for normal people like me so I really can't choose. My heart is telling me God because I have been brought up my whole life to think that and I tend to think that for everything to be here but chance would make the earth very lucky. I mean its in the ideal spot in the universe to support human life and a whole bunch of other stuff, really quite a big coincidence if that is the case, seriously it should go buy a lottery ticket or something. Then I think to myself... there is something out there that made all I can see and can't see, he lives everywhere but I can't see him, and this 'God' wrote a book for us. Out of all the things to use he uses a book to talk to us. Seems very far fetched.

There are my thoughts on the matter, there are many more but a lot of them are hard to get down so I leave you with this one simple thought... Why am I here?

Imperfections

The brown soggy snow crunched into James’ tread. As he ran to the nearest shelter he could fell the freezing wind hit his face and curve around to enter his ears. The day was almost over when James sat down to rest. Around him the ground was stained with red blood. An unclean trespasser on the white blanket. He could not feel his hands as so for the last few days, the last happy image he remembered was of his wife curled up in his bed awaiting a normal day but the day was as far from normal for James.

 

Only when he saw the first man go down did he realise what a predicament he was in, not fighting for his country but for his life. Could the war be a means to an end, like the papers say or is this another of many that will be crippling families through outBritain. Taking time to check his gun’s magazine, his thought could not help but go back to his family.

“If only they knew, if only they knew what was going through.” He grunted. The words sounded harsh but he could only feel punished for what he did to them. With his back up against the frost bitten boulder his thought drifted. His eyes glazed over and he found a place of peace knowing that his family was safe, his thoughts were tediously interrupted by the melodious fighting that was taken place just in front of him.

 

James searched the area, scanning for hope in a bleak field that cast a shadow of death in every corner. James saw one single man detach from a group only to be shot down. One bullet to the thigh, the next into the shoulder and as he was going down the third bullet pieced his skull leaving a defined mark resembling downfall ofBritain society since the war began. James began to get up; eyes swelling with emotion, heart reaching out to stop him but it was no good. Facing a wall of enemy soldiers that lined their targets on James, he shot repetitively until the magazine reached the last bullet. In the open, he felt exposed and bewildered; his emotions drove him into stupidities that would result in death.

 

The morning James had to leave, it was all organised and his family would not know that he was going to war; his wife said that if he went he could never return, this was the only way. His twin Jake took his place as father of his own house. The two were inseparable.

“Thankyou” was all that could be said by James as he walked out the door.

“I’m not doing it for you,” Was jakes reply “I’m doing it for my country.”

With that the door closed and James stepped out into the White blanket of snow.   

 

One, two, three bullets fired from the enemies guns, targeted on James, He felt the life drain from him but not disappear, he stood there on the snow as a uniformed statue. From nowhere a body dove at him smothering him in brown and white imperfections.  An unclean trespasser on the white blanket.

basically....

I laugh to think how much time and effort humans put into something when there is so little ruturn. God created the world in six days, that's a big thing to do and yet humans work for over half their life so they can get by and hopefully sustain them when they become to old to work.

Interesting thought but I guess when you compare us to God there is a lot of difference.

blogging on the go

I'm writing this blog from my mobile. Its not going to be very long but I just want to show off what my phone can do. I'm sitting at work and what do I want to do...blog. We'll with todays brilliant technology I can. Just wip out my phone and start blogging away. Quite handy if you find yourself at the shopping mall and the fruit stand is way over priced...blog about it or if your at your grandpa's house and he's telling you stories of the ye old days...blog about them or even if the queen visits and she tells you that the throne is all yours if you want it...blog about it. Quite handy in every situation really.

Peace out

My crystal ball is cloudy

As the saying goes; "The past is history, the future is a mystery and today is a gift, That is why it is called the present." To be frank... that is the worst thing ever. Why does the future have to be a mystery, it makes life so confusing for everyone.

I am planning to move to the mainland to study at uni next year but there are so many things that I have to think about. Is it the best opportunity for me? does God want me to do something else? What if I get stuck up there with nothing in my pockets but lint and half a piece of chewing gum?? If I think about it too much my head hurts. I guess people tell me to trust in God and every thing will work out but that's pretty hard to do. My question to you is this; What should I do, follow my heart and do what I feel best or trust that things will fall in place with God?

Not to be taken with salad

Today was my sunday...my working week is tuesday to saturday so today was my sunday. Do you want to know what I did? Nothing, slept in till 11 or so and got up VERY slowly, I then proceeded to do as little as possible through out the day which I accomplished brilliantly.

Some people call this a waste of a day but for me I think it is essential to take time out not only to recharge your body but recharge your mind. The mind needs to get out of the stressful chains we put it in. We try and cram so much into one day that we don't allow time to think about anything other than what's 10 meters in front of us. To fully relax and think about the FUTURE (which can be a very scary thing to think about) is needed if you want to do anything in life. 

I'm not very articulate with me words so I find this hard to get across but if you only focus on where you are now that is where you will always stay but if you take this time to pull over and contemplate the future , then you will be always MOVING toward the future. 

Think about it. Maybe this only relates to me but I bet that if you look at your life and where it is heading then you will tend to agree with me.

Peace be with you

Mind your own business

Tonight I was bagged out for wearing a jumper...why? Some people reading this would have been there and maybe you heard maybe i'm just taking this the wrong way but it seems strange to me that someone would diss someone else for wearing a jumper. Granted  it is summer but let me remind you that its tassie where I live and it doesn't get too warm down here. May seem like a strange thing to blog about but I wanted to get it off my chest, I'm not usually one to snap but I have my moments when you shouldn't cross me. To those reading this, I sorry for wasting your time and to those who I'm writing about...mind your own business.

Just to start with

ABOUT ME:

I've never been a particularly good man, in fact I've been a profoundly selfish man but it doesn't matter , none of it matters because something in the universe loves me, something in the universe loves the entity that is me. 

How do I know this? 

I don't.

I believe there is.

I choose to call this something God. A singular spark that dwells in the souls of every human being and yet controls the order and chaos of all that surrounds us. If you look inside of yourself you will find it to but you will have to look

deep

The knowledge of that there is a higher being watching you will taunt you. I know. I taunts me but its ok you see God loves you. 

How do I know this?

I don't.

I believe he does.

God only loves what is perfect and he loves you because you are perfect. You are perfect just as you are. This is just the start. when you look into it, you will never finish, the endless search for answers is a struggle in itself but when you heap the pressure of the psychical aspects of life you will find the only way to turn is the God.

How do I know this?

I Don't.

I believe you will...